This is where you can belong

finding happy now

Sat, 15 May 2010 14:57:27 -0400

i just shamelessly ate two hot dogs with a bit of ketchup, about to take a sip of my melted ice iced coffee, and smoke the rest of 2 butts i found in my cousin’s astray. i’m grateful for my life because i know i’ll be happier someday and i’ve been through the shittiest shit before and i know i’ll pull through.

but right now, i’m okay and i’m okay with that.

fuckyeahsexychicks: fuckyeahgirlswithtats: I decided to take...

Sat, 15 May 2010 14:34:25 -0400

fuckyeahsexychicks:

fuckyeahgirlswithtats:

I decided to take some pictures as I was getting ready for work yesterday.

submitted by woahitsalyssa! check her out cause not many other people take photos like these while getting ready for work.

marzargo: thoudostwish: hooloovooo: (via herekitty)

Thu, 13 May 2010 22:12:54 -0400

marzargo:

thoudostwish:

hooloovooo:

(via herekitty)

welp

Sun, 09 May 2010 23:07:47 -0400

I’m happier in life. I smoke cigarettes like crazy, but that’s what I do when I’m lonely. I can actually go cold turkey, I just have sort of “fuck it” attitude right now which is okay because it doesn’t last too long. I lost a bit of weight, which is so amazing to me cus I’m not working out as hard as I should, mostly walking, drinking water instead of soda and portion control. I lost 2 inches off my waist, which leaves me at 34”

No anxiety or panic attacks lately.

sometimesyouleave: Katy Purry. Meow.

Sun, 09 May 2010 15:00:59 -0400

sometimesyouleave:

Katy Purry. Meow.

threw myself in the shower

Sun, 02 May 2010 01:17:57 -0400

after i got out i wanted to curl up in a ball and sob on the cold floor because of the strength it took to do just that. in a way i was proud of myself for not rotting in my bed longer than a day because that would’ve just been nasty. i wont let depression take over me. fine, i’m depressed since 1998. i’ll probably always feel the black cloud over me but i won’t let it kill me.

don't read. it's depressing.

Sat, 01 May 2010 18:31:43 -0400

i’m heartbroken. haven’t eaten, i dont remember the last thing i ate. i can’t sleep. i smoke a lot of cigs. i’ll stop when my lungs hurt again.

my sister is married. everyone has a significant other. getting educated, making money. falling in love and making babies, moving into their own apartments. i’m here stuck in life watching everyone grow happier. i’m in my own hellhole, afraid to go outside alone. i cry when i’m completely alone. i don’t even want to listen to music. i honestly feel like there’s absolutely nothing to hold me back from offing myself. i don’t really speak anymore. ill feel better in a bit, just ….. God, please help.

pieceofmymind: rachell: (via cuntlery) Oh, fuck me…..

Sat, 01 May 2010 16:55:46 -0400

pieceofmymind:

rachell:

(via cuntlery)

Oh, fuck me…..

I'm feeling like I'm sinking and nothing's there to catch me, keep me breathing.

Fri, 30 Apr 2010 18:57:28 -0400

fuck you

Thu, 29 Apr 2010 17:16:10 -0400

seriously, we ended it. stop with your facebook nonsense. bye.

become a fan of shut the hell up.

-bigmouthstrikesagain: jessabelle: ladyofthesea: everyatomofyo...

Tue, 20 Apr 2010 14:46:24 -0400

-bigmouthstrikesagain:

jessabelle:

ladyofthesea:

everyatomofyouandeveryatomofme:

origamicrane:

allupsidedown:

loveesierra:

legitimate: My simple advice for anyone feeling a bit down lately.

loveyourchaos: thepiratesheart:(via movieoftheday)

Sat, 03 Apr 2010 00:00:54 -0400

loveyourchaos:

thepiratesheart:(via movieoftheday)

Fuck feeling inadequate. Fuck laying in bed thinking about everything you’re not doing. Fuck feeling like time is running out. Fuck self image. Fuck his perfect face. Fuck your unwashed hair. Fuck not trying hard enough. Fuck the internet. Fuck colds. Fuck being alone. Fuck loneliness. Fuck having to do it all over again tomorrow. Fuck youth. This isn’t youth. This isn’t freedom and weightlessness. Fuck not feeling young. Fuck you. Fuck me. Fuck this.

Thu, 25 Mar 2010 12:02:16 -0400

sabino:

iwantmybearsuit:

aprique:yerawizardharry:overdramatics:(via brokenmachine)

oh, love, how quickly you’ve turned to hate. i hate you, liar. making love to me, talking love...

Mon, 15 Mar 2010 13:16:48 -0400

oh, love, how quickly you’ve turned to hate. i hate you, liar. making love to me, talking love to your pregnant ex from forever ago, having sex with 2 (maybe 3) of your friends on the low. going through changes with me, for what? you don’t love me. i need to love me.

sigh. no more, i’m good without love.

smuttynakedness: tomsmith65:fragile-smile43:distortedretina:raym...

Sun, 14 Mar 2010 17:28:53 -0400

smuttynakedness:

tomsmith65:fragile-smile43:distortedretina:raymarble:chicasbackdoor:g-g-g-g:(via getoffjay)

O my darling, O my darling

Thu, 11 Mar 2010 14:41:53 -0500

He makes me cum. No one but myself was able to. I watched his face in the mirror as he came. He held me so close to him. He is so beautiful I can’t stand it! It’s not just sex. I love this man so much. He is my equal. His love is something straight out of my dreams.

chicadecuba: playthepianodrunk: realgirlsaresexy: (via...

Thu, 11 Mar 2010 12:52:12 -0500

chicadecuba:

playthepianodrunk:

realgirlsaresexy:

(via pornilove)

giarae: Why the fuck do I do this to myself hey, you, what’s up??? everything ok?

Mon, 15 Feb 2010 05:49:05 -0500

giarae:

Why the fuck do I do this to myself

hey, you, what’s up??? everything ok?

heart freakin broken

Mon, 15 Feb 2010 05:45:55 -0500

so yea

not dating anyone ever again. i’d rather be alone. i really mean that statement. i cried so much, and i can’t sleep because i’m in love and he wanted to just be friends.

going to start jogging as soon as my horrendous gut pain goes away. i really mean that too cus i lost 12 lbs from just walking, just 40 more to go and ill be good.

my mom has been lying up a storm. i wanted to choke her. its best if we barely have contact cus i dont know what to do in order for her to cut the shit.

my hair grew back, planning on putting caramel highlights in once the winter goes to fuck itself.

i got plans to better myself. im tired of being depressed, broke, with nothing to do except wallow in my own pity… and allowing my mom or anyone else that tries to walk on me ever again.

february has been crazy. i fell in love, i stood up for myself, i finally lost some weight, im not so anxious anymore… downside is i got my heart broken when i put my guard down!

(via chocolate-cigarettes)

Sun, 31 Jan 2010 00:40:46 -0500

(via chocolate-cigarettes)