don’t read. it’s depressing.
i’m heartbroken. haven’t eaten, i dont remember the last thing i ate. i can’t sleep. i smoke a lot of cigs. i’ll stop when my lungs hurt again.
my sister is married. everyone has a significant other. getting educated, making money. falling in love and making babies, moving into their own apartments. i’m here stuck in life watching everyone grow happier. i’m in my own hellhole, afraid to go outside alone. i cry when i’m completely alone. i don’t even want to listen to music. i honestly feel like there’s absolutely nothing to hold me back from offing myself. i don’t really speak anymore. ill feel better in a bit, just ….. God, please help.
