This is where you can belong

SUAVEMENTE

staresdeadlierthanbullets:

daamnndesiree:

(via karenmejia)

BESA ME

(ihopethatsspelledrightotherwiseilllooklikelessofapuertoricanthanialreadyam)

o m g this song never fails at getting stuck in my head!!! the only one

crying from happiness is as overwhelming as tears of sadness

this made my night

I broke down at the gym.

liliinthesky:

I was in the restroom for like thirty minutes just crying.

Then I was angry so I ran on the treadmill for a very long time.

I always cry in the gym. Been so emotional lately. that, and i got so fucking fat that it feels hopeless and such a hard struggle to better myself.

so

This is it. I’ve had it with not being independent. So with that said, I’m moving out by the end of this month. I’m very happy with my decision. 2 potential room mates have flaked on me already, so I’m going to rent a room with my 2 cats. I’m definitely going back to school and get on with my life already. I’m almost 24 years old. God, that sounds so awful but I find it to be a good thing. I wont be too far from my mom, and yet not too close to be screamed at for no good reason by a man I’m not even related to over my cat being a cat and running around. So stupid, I swear.

Good night, Tumblrs!

All I got is cats and a little bit of hope.

Depression is about having no control, right? I’ve been severely depressed for about 12 years now. I don’t believe in talking about problems. My problems are pretty much permanent. My mom, I love her so much. I don’t understand her at all. She is such a different person every single day. Last night before I went to bed, I asked her a simple question and she starts yelling at me about something completely off topic. It makes me so sad. I’m so afraid of her dying. She doesn’t take care of herself at all. At all. She would call me a stupid kid when I was younger. She would drink herself into oblivion as her then boyfriend molested/beat me right in front of her. She verbally abuses me to this day and I do not leave because I don’t want to lose my mom. I know she is very sick. Mentally and physically. I try though. I try to be there even though she sleeps all day most of the week, pretty much doesn’t care about anything in my best interest and anything I do have for myself she takes from me.

No one my age knows the problems I have “at home”. I don’t have a permanent residence. I have my kitties. That’s all I have that really makes me happy. I would honestly kill myself if I didn’t have them. It’s been a pretty sad, traumatizing life. Medication and counseling only made problems much worse due to the lack of time I have to myself and the horrible side effects of medication. There better be a good fucking reason for any/all of this and if not, well, fuck it. So there. Hope is not always there but I do have hope. I love my mom, she needs to realize that.

I love my mom

“Everything’s gonna be okay, mom.”

I wish I could make her happy.

I’m going to make her happy.

Changed womyn

Not tomorrow. Right now. It’s already in progress. I wish I had a t-shirt saying “I’ve changed” on it. I’m proud of myself. No longer will I hurt myself and the people around me. I will get my life back. I will learn to love myself.

ps ….I hope destiny does exist….

sugarpants:

i have this rash thing on my hand cause i take too long on the shower according to my doctor,and i have to put some creme on it like in the mornings. -_- its on my right hand,my main hand i touch mahh shit with it. >;o i cant touch anything with out leaving the item i touched looking greasy cause of cream.

did that sound gross? ;~;

that cream didn’t help me at all. I have the rash from washing my hands too frequently (OCD). NEOSPORIN antibiotic ointment works for me.